Seriously, I think yesterday was damn nice. Roshini, why did you have to go? But you still had fun in Sentosa riding the Luge right! Hahahaha, so toooo bad! Hehehehe, okay larh I shall not be so bad. First got some fruit eating competition thingie. Azirah help me finish my apple, hahaha thank you arh Azirah. :) Then then we played powerball, yayeeee~ Fry was #1! Very very fun! Knock here, knock there and suddenly, yay we win! HAHAHAHAHA :)

Then had some Wayang Kulit performance. We were talking about how silly the performers looked and kept laughing. No idea why actually. Then we mistook the monkey for a lion, and were creeped out by the pink-faced guy cos he looked gay. Then the monkey guy's movements also so gayish! Hahahaha, then while waiting for Deeparaya concert to start had a sick-talk session with Hemaa, Shobini, Azirah, Arifah, Remya & Arshvini. Arshvini was damn grossed out ready; then me, Arifah & Remya took sooooo damn long to get what they were saying! Hahahaha, experts in this field no #1 is Shobini, followed by Azirah! Tsk tsk tsk, you guys arh...so experienced is it? Hehehehehe! I feel so ashamed man, & you guys are what 14?! *shakes head* HAHAHAHAHA!

Eh eh, I think right this year Deeparaya concert rocked man! Feel so sad that we never take part in anything! :( Never mind, there's always next year right? We must put up a dance item, right Suganiah and Arshvini? Must arh, must arh! Okay anyway as usual the Dikir was awesome! It was damn damn nice okay. Got Izzat, Sofia, Razah & Hazah in it mah. (This is the part you guys feel so honoured & thank me like hell) Hahaha, kidding but seriously you guys did a great job. The fashion parade thingie was not bad too; woah Amirah you look so chic seh! & I can't believe Saranya wore vetti man! Niveetha wear jippa. Then then, Niveetha actually danced eh! Hahaha, all of us were cheering like hell! Hahahaha, dance also damn damn nice. Sec 1s & 3s did a great job! Next year we have to do something arh...

Then later got back results. Overall results. I was damn pissed off with my FYE results larh. Science is C5, Geog is D6 and Tamil got B3! All from like A1 & A2 drop till this. Was so freaking disappointed in myself, and I was crying at home. You guys know why right? Put in so much effort, then in the end got this kinda marks. Yesterday the overall marks gave me a shock, only had one C5 for stupid History. Can't believe I actually got 3 As! Was freaking freaking happy! Then my percentage also very the nice, hahaha! Almost the whole BBQ gang got the same range eh. Parents were quite happy with my results. They were so suprised that my marks shot up like hell. Thank god I did well for CTs! But then later, they started giving up hope.

Now the actual problem, choosing combination. I hate making choices, I suck at it! I can never seem to make up my damn mind! I scared to take triple science, too much pressure + I suck at physics. But the problem is everyone wants to take Chem + Bio combination. Then what Humanities to take? I dunno if I should try and take Geog, it seems tooooo daring leh. Literature also how? Argh, I seriously dunno what to do now. The only thing I'm sure about is that I will never take Physics and History no matter what!

I cried. Yesterday & today. Argh, I'm in one of my major mood swings again. You know sometimes you have these days, ones which you start hating your life and wish you could just put a stop to everything around you. That's exactly what I'm going through now. Regret so many things I've done. But what they find fault in, I don't. I see them as the comfort that I need. Without them, I don't think I would be able to be who I am today; such a happy & carefree girl. I still have that small and little childish side in me. I don't plan on giving it too soon either. I feel that my life is perfect right now, I have a loving family & a whole bunch of awesome friends. I need this, I really do. What I feel like doing now, just pen down everything that I feel. Sigh...Awesome, what's your awesome to do? :(